Crazy Train - and not the Ozzy song!

In the song "Crazy Train" from the classic "Blizzard of Oz" album (his first solo album after being sacked from Black Sabbath), Ozzy Osbourne wrote the immortal line "I'm going off the rails on a crazy train". Well, dear readers, I'm afraid that I am currently on board a crazy train and the train is not just off the rails but hanging on the edge of a viaduct.

"What the hell are you on about?" I hear you all asking. Well, I'm suffering from stress and depression at the moment and have been in a real emotional mess. My emotions are like a roller-coaster at the best of times thanks to being on HRT, but lately the rollercoaster of life has been heading downwards at an exceedingly fast pace and is about to make a splash in the pool at the bottom.

Unfortunately, that pool is a pool of shit.

Sometimes stress can be good for you. But the stress I have been suffering is the mental equivalent of the "wrong kind of snow" excuse for the trains which got delayed in the winter a few years back. It has caused me to lose my rag, snap at those I shouldn't do and has also caused impaired judgement. The stress has built up over a very long period and at this point I am not at liberty to write about the cause of the stress. However, when the time comes there will be a full account of the reasons for the stress and a cast list of those who caused it.

The depression? I've often got down moods. However, I have always bounced back in the past. This time it is a deep depression - my mental state is in a similar condition to the UK's economy at the moment - likely to be long-lasting. The one thing which is certain is that I will come out of this shit strong once more. Just give me the time to bounce back please!

The way back? It will be slow, and at times painful, but it will happen. Sometimes it's necessary to go down before going back up. It is time for a different route in life. I wanted a new routemap, but the timing has not been of my own choosing.

So, where's the next stop on this crazy train? That, dear readers, is a very good question. Answers please on a postcard.